I’m still doing awesome!

I have a cold and work is still busy, so I’m going to keep this short and sweet.

~ I am officially down a pant size! My size 22s feel great! Time to start looking for the next size down so I’m ready when I get there.

~ I didn’t eat ANY Halloween candy that night! It didn’t tempt me one bit, so it was easy to stay out of it. I’m still baffled by it, but I’ll take it! I did eat a few pieces yesterday and found I couldn’t eat much before my stomach started to get upset.

~ I lost 2 pounds at Weight Watchers, bringing my total to 11.2 with WW and 23.2 total. Yeah! I was 260 even, so next time I weigh-in I WILL be in the 250s.

~ I have a MUCH needed Girls Weekend next weekend. No WW next week. I plan to enjoy myself without going totally crazy on food. We’re staying at a place along a walking/biking path, so I’m hoping to get outside for a few walks and/or runs.

That’s it for now!

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Weigh In – Week 4 or 5?

I think this is actually Week 5. I guess the day I joined Weight Watchers was Week 1.

This past week was ROUGH. I didn’t track much. I was snacking way too much. I found I physically can’t eat as much as I used to, so that’s good. Work is insane for then next few weeks, so then I want to shovel my face full of food.

I almost skipped WW yesterday. I just knew I had gained. But I decided to go and face the music. I would be happy if I only gained a pound. I was sure it would be 2 or 3.

I was telling the leader about this as she weighed me. Then she says “You lost!”. I said “WHAT?!?!” I lost .4 pounds!! I’m still in shock!

So this week, no matter how busy and crazy life is, I will track and have an awesome week. I will hopefully hit 10 pounds next week!

Weight Watchers – Week 3

Holy crap – I AM doing this!!!!

Today was my Weight Watchers meeting, and I expected a loss. I wasn’t sure how much. I was surprised and very happy to see a loss of 2.8 pounds!! That is 9.6 pounds in the 3 weeks since I joined WW. That’s about 22 total down from my heaviest. I am now 262 and cannot WAIT to see the 250s!

My jeans are getting looser. Sometimes I find myself pulling them up because they’re falling down. I’m not sure I’m quite ready to go down a size, but I know it won’t be long.

I am sooooo happy things have finally clicked! I am feeling better than I have in years and I know I will keep this up.

Here’s to another fantastic week! I wonder if I can break 10 pounds next week??

Weight Watchers – Week 2

My second week on Weight Watchers went okay. I hadn’t really been counting points, even though I was watching what I was eating. I definitely snacked on too many almonds, without measuring, and didn’t drink enough water a few days. Even though work is crazy and I’m stressed about the workload (happens every year, it’ll work out), I decided I have to start being diligent about counting points. So I started Friday.

I felt like my pants were a bit looser this week. That feels great! I can hardly wait to fit back into my smaller pair of jeans that I’ve only worn once or twice. I should try them on and see how close they are.

I weighed on Saturday and lost .2 pounds. I knew I wouldn’t have a crazy number, but thought I’d squeak out a little more than that. It’s okay though…I’m just glad I lost! And I think I will see a better loss next week if I stick with it.

Yesterday was a CRAZY day with the kids so I wasn’t able to get much work done. They’re gone now and I have a quiet house for a couple of hours. Time to buckle down and make use of my time!!

Just over a month and my work project will be done…

Weight Watchers – Week 1

This past week was great! I really feel like my head is in it this time.

For the first time in a long time, maybe EVER, I believe I can reach my lifetime goal. I am starting to visualize myself returning to the smaller person I used to be – and beyond. Even when I got married and felt amazing, I still wanted to lose another 20 pounds or so. Looking back, I don’t think I truly believed in myself.

Now I am feeling much different. There is no reason in the world I can’t reach my ultimate goal weight. And keep it off! I maintained my loss before. I can do it again. I can break the cycle of obesity in my family.

Let’s get to my first week’s weigh-in. I started Weight Watchers at 271.4, down from my high of 283. Yesterday I weighed 265 for a one week loss of 6.4 pounds!! I will take it and embrace it!!!!

I am ecstatic! More importantly, I feel great. I am sleeping really well. I am in a better mood. I am fueling my body with the nourishment it needs, and my body is thanking me.

Now…onto Week 2!!

The Honeymoon Phase

Just half a week on Weight Watchers and I’m already learning some things. Or perhaps it’s not learning so much, as I already knew these things. But my awareness is raised. My desire to be healthy is raised. In turn, I am making better choices. I cannot wait for an excellent weigh-in on Saturday!

 

~ I have discovered that I eat entirely too much cheese and nuts. Even though they’re healthy, I eat too many of them.

~ I have learned that I sleep better when I go to bed without a full stomach.

~ I have learned that I can enjoy my favorite foods and still lose weight.

 

Cutting out things like breads, crackers, all extra sugar…it works. I lost 13 pounds in one month by doing this. I felt great! But it seems this isn’t good for me in the long run. I have done nothing but yo-yo for the past few years. Apparently following my “no bread” plan leaves me feeling deprived. I fight it and fight it, until one day I totally binge. And a lot of times those binges turn into days or weeks of unhealthy eating.

I don’t eat as many breads as I used to, so it’s not all bad. The past year I just haven’t cared enough to watch what I eat. Now that I’m serious about it, it’s easier to avoid the breads. I just need to figure out how to allow myself to have them occasionally, without going overboard.

These past few days have been GREAT! I feel like I’m in the honeymoon phase and I know this won’t always be easy, but so far I am completely on track! I am going to enjoy this while it lasts.

I think part of the reason this has been easy is because I have worked to clean up my diet the past few years. Eating healthier has become a habit. I just need to learn how to avoid bingeing. I need to learn how to allow those indulgences – within my points – when I feel I need them.

Work is getting CRAZY but I’m just not motivated to work. I will pay for that in October.

I made a commitment

I have been married for almost 10 years. Before I got married, I lost 43 pounds by following the Weight Watchers plan by myself at home. I felt amazing! I still had about 20 pounds to lose, but I felt great! I had kept it off for a few years too.

Just Married! Oct 23, 2004

Just Married! Oct 23, 2004

We went to Hawaii on our honeymoon. I gained 7 pounds. Then I gained 50 pounds with each of my three pregnancies. I didn’t lose all the weight from any of them, and my last one I lost maybe 4 pounds.

A few years ago, I decided I was going to lose weight. On my own. Again. I’ve had some success. I’ve lost a bit, some months were great. But then I’d put it back on. I’m tired of the yo-yoing. I’m tired of very little progress. I’m tired of having no energy.

After thinking about it all week, and basically hitting rock bottom, I joined Weight Watchers. My first meeting was yesterday and I weighed in at 271.4, only 12 pounds down from my heaviest. Now I know their scale is probably a bit heavier than mine, just because I went after breakfast, but I will use their number for now.

I will show the “before” pictures I took yesterday at some point. I don’t feel ready yet. Here is another picture of me at my heaviest…not a great picture, but I think it’s obvious how much heavier I am that in my wedding picture.

Jan1-2013

Jan1-2013

I love online tools and support groups, but I need that personal support. I don’t have the kind of support I need at home, and this group of women I found seems great. I hope I can always make that day/time work.

I didn’t want to spend the money. Things are TIGHT for us. But I’m working my tail off couponing, and I probably save the monthly membership in one week of couponing. I deserve it. I need it. I need and want to do something positive for myself.

The moment I decided to join WW, I felt a weight lift from my shoulders. It feels like the right decision, at the right time. I can hardly weight to go next week!

Fricking Fracking Stress!

I don’t keep up on anything anymore. I have many half-finished projects. I always have excuses why I can take “just tonight” off and relax. Tomorrow I’ll get something done. Tomorrow I have the same excuses. It’s like my dad always says, tomorrow never gets here!

I know if I keep myself moving, I get more done. When I get more done, I FEEL better. I sleep better. I wake up in a better mood and don’t feel defeated right out of the gate. It’s a no-brainer, really. And yet I continue with the excuses.

I have no idea what my weight is right now. I definitely feel fuller in my stomach. I know that’s primarily because I snack too much in the evenings. Marcus is eating better these days, which helps, but it hasn’t stopped me from snacking. A lot of times I eat nuts and raisins, which is great, but I know I eat too much of them. And I shouldn’t be eating more than that at night. The extras need to stop.

Work is getting crazy and I’m just not motivated to do it! I am so completely exhausted by the end of October each year…it’s tough to make myself work extra right now. But I have to or it’ll be even worse later. I feel the “stress ball” in my stomach growing. I’ve learned this is where I store my stress. I’ve also learned that running helps. When I run, I can literally feel the stress leaving my body. So why don’t I get back to running?? On the one hand, I know if I take time to run, I will feel better and probably be more productive. On the other hand, I feel like I just have too much to do to take time off. And yet here I am blogging. Hmm…

Right now isn’t the best time to go all gung ho on a diet plan, although that doesn’t mean I can’t make an effort to make better choices. The #1 thing I am working on – starting NOW – is to chug the water! I’ve been slacking on it the past few weeks, and I feel better when I drink more. Plus if I’m really focusing on drinking more, I feel fuller which helps to minimize the endless snacking.

Somehow I need to get my shit together again. I can’t put too much pressure on myself for the next couple of months, but I still need to do the best I can. My hope is to get through this crazy work project with my sanity intact, and come out of it with some solid goals. Maybe I need to treat myself like a child and make a sticker chart or something. Ha! I’m sort of serious too…I need a visual way to “reward” myself for reaching my goals.

If I can work it out, I would love to take a full week off work when the kids are in school. I’m sure daycare will take time off to screw that up, though. It always happens. I understand it, but I also haven’t had much “me time” since we switched to this daycare 3 years ago. It’s much better than the previous one, so I have no regrets, I’m just missing my time.

Okay, so I can start some goals NOW. Today I will drink lots of water. And I will focus on work. I have a lot to do and will feel better at the end of the day knowing I did all I could do.

Do you have any tips to help me get through the next 7 or 8 weeks? Do you have any ideas on how I get track my goals?

New Routines

It’s been a good day. It’s the first full day of school. We’re trying something new this year, so I got to watch my daughters get on the bus this morning. I haven’t been able to do that very much, so this is nice. And they’re going to a program after school that helps them with homework, so I am VERY excited. Weeknights get stressful with everything that has to get done, and trying to help kids with homework isn’t easy. I don’t know how to teach, and Cameron doesn’t listen to me. The student/tutor environment will be excellent for her.

Now my son is the only one in daycare! Yay for saving money!! Plus the drive to daycare was actually pleasant this morning, because there was no one else to pester him. He can look out the window without getting yelled at. Yes, that really happens…poor kid can’t even look out his sister’s window without her yelling at him. Sigh…

Anyway, even though work is crazy right now, I’m trying to make healthier choices. They’re still far from perfect, but I can tell my husband is making dietary changes. Plus I’ve been busy canning tomatoes so I don’t have as much time to sit and eat all night. It feels good to be productive too.

Today, I went for my first run in probably 6 weeks. I’m starting the C25k program over with Week 1 Day 1. It felt great!! And my time was 15:10! What?! I can hardly believe it. I’m hoping to continue. The next 2 months at work are insanely busy, but I will run as much as I can!

Life is really getting a bit easier as the kids get older. I can do more things around the house without having to supervise them constantly. And I am working on my patience and making letting them help more with things like sweeping, vacuuming and other projects I can find. Last night Cameron helped me carry Target bags into the house. Little things like that are a big help!

I’m not sure how much I’ll be blogging for the next couple of months. If I do, I might have to keep them short. I definitely want to keep running and posting about that!

Overall life is good and getting better all the time. I am hopeful with how things are changing, it’ll be easier to take care of myself.

Another quick check-in

I have been neglecting my blog. Life is crazy right now! This week in particular is really bad.

We don’t have daycare all week. My mother-in-law, who is usually able to help watch kids, is recovering from foot surgery. I have no one to watch Kody so I am working at home most of the week.

On top of this, Marcus had a colonoscopy Monday, so I spent half the day sitting in the hospital. Then Friday my mom is having weight loss surgery, but we don’t know what time, so I will be spending more time in the hospital. Luckily my dad is taking my kids overnight so I don’t have to worry about them for the day.

Work is busy, so I need to work in the evenings to try to stay caught up. That is pretty much impossible this time of year, but I need to do what I can now so I can maybe avoid some 60 hour weeks later.

That pretty much sums up my crazy life right now. No, I haven’t been running, and I miss it!

The good news is I have lost 2.9 pounds in the past 10 days or so that my friend and I have been sending pics to each other of what we eat. It has really helped me to keep things under control. I haven’t eaten perfect, but knowing I have to show her what I’m eating makes me stop eating sooner.

That’s about it…hopefully I’ll have time soon to catch up on reading your blogs!