I have hit numerous milestones this past week.

First my car rolled over 100,000 miles. And I wasn’t even the one driving it to witness the momentous occasion! It’s exciting but sad at the same time. It isn’t quite 5 years old, so I drive a LOT. I still have about 9 months left to pay on it and am already getting New Car Fever. I would love to get something with a 3rd row and hopefully minimize some of the kids’ fighting. They aren’t usually in the car together more than 10 minutes at a time, yet they insist on arguing and making it a brutal 10 minutes. I really can’t consider a new vehicle until this one is paid off though.

Last Friday I took the day off work. I went for a run early in the day and got more steps than I expected. I think I was at 10,000 steps before noon! It was easy to hit 15,000 steps that day…my first time since getting my Fitbit pedometer! I turned around and did the same thing on Saturday.

I’ve been sticking with Week 6 Day 1 of the c25k program. With an 8 minute run and two 5 minute runs, it pushes me. But not so much that I dread it. It’s actually enjoyable now and I am working on increasing my pace. My best time for this run is 16:01, which is great for me! I’m working to get under 16:00, then will consider moving on to the next workout.

After two crazy step days, I was hurting on Sunday. Not a bad hurt, but I could definitely tell I had been working my body harder. I wanted to run knowing I wouldn’t be able to for a couple more days, but listened to my body and just walked. It was kind of enjoyable to not push myself so hard. And it took a good 10 minutes for my body to loosen up enough that I didn’t hurt. It was a wise move on my part.

Now we’re in the middle of two extremely warm and humid days. With no air conditioner (not even a window unit), I am not about to exert myself in the heat. Even a cold shower doesn’t cut it. By the time I’m dried off, I’m dripping in sweat again. It should cool off again tomorrow, so I will be back to running as much as my schedule allows.

I can hardly wait to hit the pavement, or dirt road, again!


More running, and a weigh-in

This week I started Week 4 of c25k. There are two 3 minute runs and two 5 minute runs. It’s definitely a challenge and I am dripping with sweat by the end. It feels great!! I can hardly believe I’m doing it, but I am! The 5 minute runs are definitely a challenge for me, so I won’t move onto Week 5 quite yet. Heck, I’d be happy to stay on Week 4 and work on increasing my speed. Either way, I love it and I’m glad my feet and calves aren’t giving me any trouble.

Speaking of calf muscles, yesterday I was putting on my tennis shoes and I felt a calf muscle! I don’t know that I’ve ever felt it as strong as it is right now. I love it and can’t wait to find more muscles!

I’m getting back into the smoothies I used to make. They’re so easy, I don’t know why I stopped. Oh yeah…because it was winter and it was fricking cold! They’re very refreshing now. The way I make them, they’re usually the consistency of ice cream so it’s a nice little treat.

Today was my weigh-in day. I was up .2 pounds to 264.8. I expected more of a gain. I didn’t eat great most of the week. I feel stronger though, so I think the exercise is helping. I feel like if I can be more consistent with eating healthy, the weight is going to start coming off much quicker.

No matter what, I’m feeling great these days!

What a week!

When I posted last week, I mentioned that I had been sick. Well, I’m still sick. I have been to the doctor twice now.

You see, my cold turned into a sinus infection. My ears hurt for two days when I finally decided I should go to the doctor. I might be a baby at home when I’m sick, but I do not go to the doctor unless I’ve feeling pretty miserable. I went on Friday, was given an antibiotic, and was told I should feel better by Monday or Tuesday. It’s now Wednesday. I’m feeling better, yet my head still hurts and my ears are still plugged. I went back to the doctor and have added a steroid nasal spray to my regimen. I do not like to take medicine, and especially hate nasal sprays. But by now, I’ll try just about anything to feel better.

I haven’t gotten any formal exercise since last Thursday. I am missing my c25k workouts! Between feeling sick, and the terrible thunderstorms and tornado threats, I haven’t been able to get outside. I’m anxious to get back to it.

Eating hasn’t been the greatest either. It’s just so dang hard to care when you’re sick! I must not be making totally terrible choices though, because I managed to squeak out another .4 pound loss this week! I’m at 264.6.

As long as the scale keeps moving down, I will be happy. This is a lifestyle change and life happens. I’ll get sick or weather will be too wet. But I will make the most of the situation and do the best I can, but also cut myself some slack.

I’m still saving a decent amount of money couponing. It’s a lot of work, yet I feel the financial stress lifting. Well, I do and I don’t. Things are still extremely tight, but I can tell it’s getting more manageable. And I’m stocking up on necessities, but not like a crazy person because I just don’t have the storage space.

Hopefully I’ll be healthy one of these days. I want to enjoy some summer fun with my kids!

More c25k, Family activities, and a Weigh-in

I was sick all weekend. Actually, it’s been about a week and I’m finally feeling much better. Colds really wipe you out!! I didn’t eat the greatest while I was sick, but didn’t do terrible. I’m really trying to exercise at least every other day, so was bummed when I had to take a few days off. Friday I was home all day binge-watching Parenthood, and started to cry when a couple announced their engagement to the family. That’s how I knew I was sick for real. I get crazy emotional when I’m sick!

By Sunday, I was feeling well enough to get outside for my C25k workout. Today I completed Week 3 Day 2. I’ve been taking it slow for fear of pulling a calf muscle, but all has been going well, so I ran faster my last 30 seconds. I’m going to start doing bursts like that from now on. It felt great! I can’t believe how much easier this has become in the short time I’ve been doing it. I peeked ahead to Week 4 and must admit I’m both scared and excited to try it. There is a LOT more running starting with Week 4!

I think what I’m loving about c25k is I have an actual goal when I get outside. Not that I didn’t when I went for walks, or even when I did some jogging. But with this, it’s like I have a concrete goal. I have someone telling me when to run, and I want to complete the workout. By myself, it’s too easy to say I don’t want to run anymore so I’ll just walk the rest.

Last night I was very surprised when Marcus said we should go for some family bike rides on some bike trails. What?! Is this really my husband talking???? As kids we both loved riding bike. I’m sure I would again if I just did it. My daughters are riding their bikes real well, so once my son gets going, this is something we might actually do. I would LOVE to have a family day and actually DO something active. It’ll likely be a year or two before we do this, because Kody just got his bike and won’t pedal yet. But it’s something to look forward to. And by then, I WILL be more fit so I won’t feel so silly on a bike. We are slowly becoming more active as a family, and I love it.

Finally, it’s time to report my weigh-in. I was sick much of the week, but I managed to squeak out a 0.4 pound loss! I’m happy with that! I’m currently at 265 and anxious to get out of the 260s. Again. It’ll happen. Especially if I keep exercising.

I’m definitely feeling healthier and stronger these days!

I don’t want to jinx myself…

…but I think I’m back on track!


I am still doing the c25k program. And enjoying it! I finished Week 2 Day 2 last night. I might stay on this week a couple extra workouts and try to increase my jogging speed before moving on. I’ll see how my next workout goes – hopefully tomorrow if I don’t get rained out.

I have also decided I have to log my food. Just do it! No matter what food plan I follow, I HAVE to track it! So I’m back to using MyFitnessPal and am doing well. I’ve been avoiding sugar and breads. I don’t feel deprived either…it’s like the switch flipped in my brain and I’m ready to do it. I hope this feeling continues. I know I will have hard days, but I want to power through them…I haven’t wanted to in a while.

I’m too close to gaining back all the weight that I’ve lost, so decided it’s time to get serious. I’ve been exercising for a few weeks, and started tracking my food on Sunday, June 1. Just the first day, I was down 5 pounds! I know I was really bloated, and luckily this is timed with my Time Of Month. I’m feeling strong, AND losing the bloat. I should see a really nice loss on the scale tomorrow. MFP friends, don’t get too excited when you see my loss. I’ve gained much more than that!

I’m just happy to be on track and feeling good.

Well, other than my neck pain. I woke up Sunday with horrible neck pain. I must have slept on it wrong, and it was extremely painful all day Sunday. It’s much better now, but still hurts.

Next time I check in, I hope to report that I’m still on track!!

Giving C25k another shot

Yes, you read that right. I am trying the C25k program again. I tried it once before, maybe a year ago. I made it through ONE workout. ONE! It was great, but then I started having foot problems or pulled my calf muscle. I don’t recall which it was as I’ve had problems with both.

I’m happy to report that this time I have made it through THREE workouts so far! I started late last week. During my first workout, at the end of my first jogging portion, my left calf muscle seized up. It freaked me out, for fear of pulling it and having to deal with an injury again. But I decided I would just take it easy during the jogging parts. I think I’ve been trying to jog too fast or something, so since then, I’ve gone at a nice slow pace. I’ve made it through three workouts, successfully, and it feels great!

I will go through the program slow. If I get to a workout that feels too hard, I’ll go back to another one, or keep repeating it until it gets easier. Whether or not I finish the program doesn’t really matter to me. I just like the structure and it pushes me to do something more strenuous than walking.

My steps have also increased dramatically over the long weekend. I hit an average of 10,000 steps four days in a row! That’s saying a lot since I usually have to push myself to get 7000 steps in a day. By last night, I was exhausted!

While I have been doing well on the exercise front, my eating has been anything but good. Despite my bad eating habits, my spirits are high and I feel better than I have in a long time. I feel more like my old self, the person I’ve been trying to find and figure out who she is with kids.

It was a really nice long weekend. Crops are planted (YAY!!), our vegetable garden is planted, kids were fairly well behaved, I had more patience with the kids, I got some regular exercise, I did some baking which I used to enjoy, the weather was perfect…it was great and I could use another day off of work. I hope this is a pattern that continues.

That’s about it for updates at the moment. I’m hoping to get outside for another c25k workout tonight. If it’s raining, I’ll need to clean my filthy house since it wasn’t  a priority at all over the weekend.

I feel SO much better when I’m productive and active!


Must. Stay. Busy.

I’m working at home today and already feeling the pull of the Easter baskets. But if I give in, I won’t be able to stop and I will never reach my goals. If I can stay on track and make healthy choices today, it will be empowering and help me get through tomorrow.

Yesterday was a great day. I went for a walk when I got home from work. I usually try to jog as much as I can, but I wasn’t feeling it last night. So I just walked and enjoyed the spring weather.

After I got home, ate a healthy supper and put kids to bed, I got to work clipping coupons. I have just started couponing and knew I had to get them organized. It took at hour to clip them! Today I need to organize them into groups. It was a nice project to work on while I was watching The Voice, and kept my hands busy so I didn’t feel the need to snack.

Speaking of The Voice, I cannot believe Dani was voted out! She is amazing and one of my favorites. Do you watch it? Who are some of your favorites?

My goal is to stay busy today, so I don’t think about eating senselessly. I have a bunch of little projects I can do when I need a break from work, which will help keep me moving and my mind occupied. I always do better when I keep myself moving!

Do you have any tricks that help to keep you from eating unnecessarily?

Treadmill and Free By 40

My treadmill works again!!!!

This has been a long time coming. A few years ago, I stopped using it much because walking on it hurt my foot. Then I noticed it just wasn’t working right. I would be clipping along at a nice pace, and it would just stop! That’s not safe at all, so I quit using it. I wanted to try cleaning it first to see if that would help. I looked and couldn’t figure out how to get the cover off, so I have asked Marcus a few times over the past year or more. Yesterday, I asked AGAIN. Well, he was super bored yesterday, so he got it done! I walked on it for about 15 minutes to test it out and it seems to be working fine. Woohoo!

My foot started to hurt a little bit, so I think my body doesn’t like that hard surface. But it felt so good to use it again! I still want to get outside when I can, but at least I have this as an option.

I am sticking to the smaller amount of creamer in my coffee. You know what? I’m actually really enjoying it! I’m hopeful I’ll be able to cut back a bit more one of these days.

I have decided I will be Free by 40. What does this mean, you ask? It means I want to be free of the extra weight, free of the financial stress, free of anything that weighs me down either physically or metaphorically. I have just under two years to do this.

If I stay on track more and continue to make small lifestyle changes, there is no reason I cannot be at a healthy weight in two years. Financially, it’s going to be a tough year with the farm, but we’ll find a way to make it work. I can tell it’s getting easier to pay our personal bills with our paychecks, and that will gradually continue to improve. Other stuff? Well, the Prozac is definitely helping my moods and patience with the kids. As always, I continue to strive to improve myself and how I react to things.

I want to go into my 40s feeling free. The kids will be a bit older and I’ll be able to leave them home alone so I can go for walks, weed the garden, or whatever else I need to do. Lots of things will be better. And I believe they’ll be even better once I’ve shed the weight. I know it doesn’t fix everything, but at least I’ll have more energy and will have found time to care for my body and my health.

Do you have any long term or short term goals you’re working on?

First jog of the year!

It’s cold out today – mid-20s. But there isn’t much wind, so I took advantage of it and went for my first jog of the year! Well, walking and jogging intervals, actually. It felt great!! I returned to my chaotic home feeling renewed and a bit more energetic and determined. I can’t wait to get out there again!

I also need to get my treadmill fixed so I can use it when I can’t/don’t want to get outside.

How have I been eating? I start out every day great. I usually have a bowl of oatmeal (need to get back into smoothies too), and have cut back on my creamer a bit. Not a ton, but enough that I’m saving some calories and the taste isn’t a drastic change. I can handle it, so will continue with that for a bit longer.

It seems around midday to early evening, my eating goes downhill. It’s been bad. I’d like to blame it on all the Girl Scout cookies we have, but for now they’re in my car so it takes some effort to get to them. But still, I’ll be happy when they’re gone. I don’t buy much junk for the house at all, although my husband does. What he does buy doesn’t usually appeal to me that much, so I need to learn to stay out of it.

Today, so far, is going well. Maybe the jogging helped? Or maybe it helps that I’m actually getting some cleaning done around the house? I always feel better after things are picked up and clean. For the few moments it lasts anyway.

My son-who-refuses-to-nap today needs me. Off to help him. Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Life’s Ups and Downs

It looks like I’m a once-every-two-weeks blogger. Blah.

I guess I’m kind of in an emotional pit. I won’t go into details, but life is just really stressful. When I get stressed, I eat. Then I sabotage my weight loss efforts and get more stressed. So I eat. It’s a vicious cycle. The Prozac is helping, but it’s definitely not a cure-all, and it doesn’t pay the bills!

One very good thing is I’ve noticed the Prozac has helped with my anxiety. I didn’t realize I had anxiety until a year or two ago. It really only happens when I’m driving, which is NOT a good time. I get a bit light-headed, then my hands and arms get tingly. A few times I’ve pulled over for fear I would pass out. It happens anytime I feel closed in, like there is fog, snow, rain, or even too much traffic or darkness. I’ve learned this anxiety developed after driving in a blizzard 6 years ago. It had become a daily event and I would do some deep breathing just to get through the drive to work. But luckily, very luckily, the Prozac has all but made this disappear! I cannot begin to tell you how liberating it is to feel like I can actually drive again! We took a family drive last weekend to visit some family, and I actually drove the entire trip. It was nice!

On the food front, I have a few really great days of eating, then a really bad day. Then 1/2 a good day followed by 3 bad days. You see how it goes… So I’m not making progress and I’m sick of it. I need to find my groove and get this moving.

So…since it is now officially SPRING (even if it doesn’t feel like it quite yet), it’s time to get moving. When my schedule and the weather permit, I will get outside to jog. Jogging is such an amazing stress reliever for me, and I miss it.

Starting TODAY, I am also trying to follow my Healthy 30 plan again. This means no obvious sugars (except creamer in my coffee, which I am cutting back on), no bread, crackers, etc. I know I do well when I stick to this plan, and I feel amazing. I’m not necessarily sticking to doing this for 30 days. It’s kind of an ongoing thing because this is how I want to eat most of the time. I also need to find ways to incorporate something like a slice of toast if it’s what I’m really craving.

I will try to blog more than once every two weeks so I can share my struggles and triumphs. I’m excited to make this a successful Day One!