Weight Watchers – Week 1

This past week was great! I really feel like my head is in it this time.

For the first time in a long time, maybe EVER, I believe I can reach my lifetime goal. I am starting to visualize myself returning to the smaller person I used to be – and beyond. Even when I got married and felt amazing, I still wanted to lose another 20 pounds or so. Looking back, I don’t think I truly believed in myself.

Now I am feeling much different. There is no reason in the world I can’t reach my ultimate goal weight. And keep it off! I maintained my loss before. I can do it again. I can break the cycle of obesity in my family.

Let’s get to my first week’s weigh-in. I started Weight Watchers at 271.4, down from my high of 283. Yesterday I weighed 265 for a one week loss of 6.4 pounds!! I will take it and embrace it!!!!

I am ecstatic! More importantly, I feel great. I am sleeping really well. I am in a better mood. I am fueling my body with the nourishment it needs, and my body is thanking me.

Now…onto Week 2!!

I feel awesome!

My hard work is starting to pay off! The past few weeks my weigh-ins haven’t been great, but I’ve been okay with them because I know I’m doing the right things and I feel really good. Today I finally saw a nice loss of 1.6 pounds! I am now 263.2 and hoping to be out of the 260s (again) by the end of July. If I keep it up, I should be able to do it.

I’m working at home today, so took advantage of it and went for a run. I repeated Week 5 Day 1 of the C25k program. It got tough towards the end, but I can totally do it. I’m a bit slow, but that’s okay. I’m faster than I was a few weeks ago and I’m not as afraid now of pulling another calf muscle. I’m undecided about moving on since that one has two 8 minute runs. Maybe I’ll just go for it, knowing I can walk a little bit if I have to. If I push myself, I know I can do it though. Okay, decision made! Next workout I will do Week 5 Day 2.

Days I work at home I tend to have a hard time eating well. I’m home alone so sometimes eat crap all day long. I’m trying really, really hard to stay on track today. I’m feeling great so want to keep it up! Plus I know I might not eat the greatest over the holiday weekend, so need to save any indulgences for then.

I still can’t get over how much I am enjoying running. Days I run I am definitely in a better mood. It is amazing!

I am a runner

This morning I took advantage of some unexpected time, and did Week 5 Day 1 of the c25k program. I don’t know why I was so nervous about this particular workout, which included three 5 minute runs. My fitness has really improved and it was relatively easy! I felt amazing and my playlist seemed to be motivating me at the perfect times.

During my last running interval, “How Bad Do You Want It?” started to play. I LOVE THIS SONG! I find it incredibly motivating, and I really pushed myself the last 30 seconds of my run. It was definitely a run and not a jog.

A few short weeks ago, I never thought I’d be able to run for 5 minutes without stopping. Now I can. And it’s really not that hard! I can do this!

For the first time in my life, I feel like I can honestly say:

I am a runner.

More c25k, Family activities, and a Weigh-in

I was sick all weekend. Actually, it’s been about a week and I’m finally feeling much better. Colds really wipe you out!! I didn’t eat the greatest while I was sick, but didn’t do terrible. I’m really trying to exercise at least every other day, so was bummed when I had to take a few days off. Friday I was home all day binge-watching Parenthood, and started to cry when a couple announced their engagement to the family. That’s how I knew I was sick for real. I get crazy emotional when I’m sick!

By Sunday, I was feeling well enough to get outside for my C25k workout. Today I completed Week 3 Day 2. I’ve been taking it slow for fear of pulling a calf muscle, but all has been going well, so I ran faster my last 30 seconds. I’m going to start doing bursts like that from now on. It felt great! I can’t believe how much easier this has become in the short time I’ve been doing it. I peeked ahead to Week 4 and must admit I’m both scared and excited to try it. There is a LOT more running starting with Week 4!

I think what I’m loving about c25k is I have an actual goal when I get outside. Not that I didn’t when I went for walks, or even when I did some jogging. But with this, it’s like I have a concrete goal. I have someone telling me when to run, and I want to complete the workout. By myself, it’s too easy to say I don’t want to run anymore so I’ll just walk the rest.

Last night I was very surprised when Marcus said we should go for some family bike rides on some bike trails. What?! Is this really my husband talking???? As kids we both loved riding bike. I’m sure I would again if I just did it. My daughters are riding their bikes real well, so once my son gets going, this is something we might actually do. I would LOVE to have a family day and actually DO something active. It’ll likely be a year or two before we do this, because Kody just got his bike and won’t pedal yet. But it’s something to look forward to. And by then, I WILL be more fit so I won’t feel so silly on a bike. We are slowly becoming more active as a family, and I love it.

Finally, it’s time to report my weigh-in. I was sick much of the week, but I managed to squeak out a 0.4 pound loss! I’m happy with that! I’m currently at 265 and anxious to get out of the 260s. Again. It’ll happen. Especially if I keep exercising.

I’m definitely feeling healthier and stronger these days!

It’s been a while!

I’ve been a bad blogger! For once, it doesn’t mean I’m doing terrible. I’m actually doing quite well!

So what have I been up to? Some of you know that I love my fitbit pedometer. I have found a group on the fitbit site that I’m really connecting with. It’s an active group that has daily challenges. Things like Middle Monday where we work our core, and Wing Wednesday where we work our upper body. Plus we have monthly challenges with teams, so I’ve been spending a lot of my time there.

One of the goals with my fitbit group was to write out my overall goal, and 3 reasons I want to meet this goal. Then print it out and keep it somewhere I will see it at least 3 times a day. I thought I would share my goal and reasons.

Overall goal:
Improve my physical, mental and emotional health.

Reasons:
1 – So I can feel like I did at my lowest weight – amazing!
2 – So I can be active and have fun with my kids.
3 – To break the cycle and my kids never have to go through this.

I have also completed my first full week of logging what I eat. I can’t remember the last time I did that! Usually I take a meal/day/weekend off and eat whatever, but nothing good ever comes of that. I’m coming to the realization that I will have to track what I eat for the rest of my life. I still don’t like it, but I’m accepting it. And even if I eat something I shouldn’t, I still need to log it. It is keeping me from getting completely carried away. And when the day comes that I eat something really crazy, I will still count those calories.

So yesterday I weighed in, after my full week of tracking my food. Oh, and I’ve gotten back into exercising. Guess what?! I lost 5.3 pounds! I am sitting at 259, back out of the 260s FOR GOOD. I still have a few pounds of holiday weight to lose, plus a few more to get to my previous lowest weight. But I’ll get there. I am feeling more confident and in control than I have in a LONG time!

I typically don’t lose two weeks in a row, but if I keep this up, there is no reason I shouldn’t. I can hardly wait to weigh myself next Wednesday!

Being on track feels so amazing. I’m going to ride this wave as long as I can!

Okay Mother Nature…

We’ve had enough here in the frozen tundra of Minnesota! All of you have probably heard about our insanely cold weather. I even have an online friend in Australia who heard about it on her news.

School is closed today, for the second day in a row. Marcus got called in to work, so he was gone by the time I tried to leave to take the kids to daycare. My car won’t start. It won’t even turn over. So I’m home with the kids again. And we have a frozen pipe in my daughter’s bedroom. I won’t go into all the details, but I have a space heater going in that room and it seems to be helping. Not exactly what I want to deal with today.

All of this “life crap” doesn’t help my food choices. It makes me want to turn to comfort food, which isn’t usually healthy. And I’ve been giving in. More than I care to admit. It’s a good thing we don’t have any pasta in the house, because a big bowl of buttered noodles sounds delicious right now.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. Being fat is painful. It’s painful inside and out. I’m sick of the pain! I know losing weight has pains of it’s own, but I prefer the pain of sore muscles to the current pain I’m in. Last night I remembered how great I felt at my lowest weight…I felt strong and healthy. I felt beautiful. Inside and out. I want that feeling back and I will fight to get it.

If I can start my day with exercise, I know I will feel good and it will help me to stay on track with my eating. I won’t always be successful, but it will help. So I decided I just have to get up in the morning to do some kind of exercise. I almost got up this morning. Then I didn’t. I will try again tomorrow. I will keep trying until I succeed.

I will succeed. I choose the pain of losing weight.

A post of miscellaneous ramblings

This past week has gone fairly well for me. Here are my December goals again, along with an update of each:

~ 10 glasses of water every day – SUCCESS! I think there was one day I even managed 12 glasses!

~ 10 minutes of exercise 5 days a week – So far so good! I have taken 2 days off since Sunday, so technically need to get some official exercise to really make this one a success. Whether I do or not, I am moving more, which is the point.

~ log calories 5 days a week, and stay within MyFitnessPal range – SUCCESS! Thursday night I nearly had a binge, but it was a busy night so I wouldn’t have had much time to enjoy whatever I wanted to indulge in. So I stuck to my plan and felt great for that. Friday was a day off from logging. I knew I needed the break or I would totally binge. While I didn’t eat great (far from it, actually), I didn’t go totally crazy eating whatever I wanted all day long. Today I don’t have to log as I have already reached my weekly goal, but I think I will. Even if I go over my calories.

~ 60 second plank every day – SUCCESS!

I’m feeling good about my goals and hope everything continues to go this well.

This week a friend told me she’s always thought I’ve been better than most at getting back on track. What a compliment! I have never really thought that about myself because I struggle so much. But maybe she’s right. Other than when I was having babies and totally let myself go, I always seem to be working at improving my health and physique.

Marcus is off hunting again. Usually he just goes deer hunting once a year, but this year he talked me into “letting” him go pheasant hunting as well. So I’m doing chores again. And I’m not thrilled with it. This morning was -4 degrees!! But I am getting more comfortable with it all the time, even in the dark. It’s getting easier physically, and I like how it makes me get up in the morning. Yesterday I even did part of a Walk Away the Pounds video since I was up.

Today I need to make a major dent in my Christmas shopping. I have lots of ideas…just need to make some decisions and get things purchased. I will likely do most of my shopping online. I like how I can see more choices easily…and I don’t have to go outside in this bitter cold.

Brrrrrr!!!!!

It feels good to be on track!

I am thrilled to report I am on my 3rd consecutive day of being on track! I plan to finish the day strong. I have already gone for a short walk during work because I know tonight will be busy.

I didn’t get my 10 minutes of exercise in yesterday, but met my other goals. I get two days off of exercise anyway, so it’s all good.

I have lost 6 pounds in 2 days. I know it’s probably all fluid retention, but it feels great to have it off! I was feeling extremely bloated and puffy. I am back to my 30 pound total loss. This is what I want to maintain until the end of the month, so I need to lose a few more before the temptations really hit.

Holiday treats are already showing up in the office. Today it’s Godiva chocolates. OMG I could eat them all! But then I’d feel disgusting. Luckily, they are in our lunch room up one floor and down a long hall. I am going to avoid that room at all costs. I am feeling strong today so I will go with it.

How are the rest of you doing?

October Plan

My Healthy 30 kind of fizzled out at the end. But I made it 26 days!! For that, I am extremely proud. I lost 10 pounds, and am sitting at 242. I feel a bit bloated, so hope some of that is fluid retention.

I’ve learned I do better when I have a solid plan. So I need to go into October with some solid goals. I have decided I am basically going to do the same thing I did in September. My rules are here. The big difference is I am going to give myself 4 cheat days, to use when I feel I need them most. My cravings have subsided, so I should have a couple of weeks before I really want to use one. I also can’t use 2 cheat days in a row. This will force me to get back on track immediately.

I am hoping to lose another 10 pounds this month. Then another 5 before Thanksgiving. That will give me a total loss of 50 pounds, and I really want to hit that before going into the holidays. I’ll worry about holiday plans when they get a bit closer.

I have also been thinking I should get back to some sort of regular exercise. But I’m also realistic. I worked 55 hours last week, and will have similar hours through this entire month. I do enjoy my wii Biggest Loser program, so will look to see if it has an option for workouts just 3 days each week. And I’ll stick to the smallest time commitment as well. For now.

Here we go…onto October! What are some of your goals? Let’s crush them!

Day 25: Learning more about my body

Work, work, work. Blah, blah, blah.

My life literally revolves around work this time of year. I have worked at least a little bit every single day since September 3. By the time I leave work today, I will be at 53.75 hours so far for the week. And I could easily put in a full day tomorrow. The overtime pay is what keeps me going. At least now when I’m in the early stages of the long weeks. In another month, I will no longer care about the money.

I am really hoping for a family day on Sunday. I have an idea I ran by Marcus. So far he doesn’t seem real excited, but I think it would be fun. There is a pumpkin patch in our area, one that the girls went to with school a couple of times. Allison might get to go again this year, but those school events are always insanely crazy. So I thought it would be nice for us to go as a family. We can take our time and wander around at our leisure. Pick pumpkins, go for a wagon ride, take some nice pictures, and enjoy some beautiful fall weather. We rarely do these things and I think it would be nice. Plus I could use the break from work.

I almost caved last night. I almost quit my Healthy 30. It’s not like I’ve been craving anything specific. I’m not drooling over the thought of a piece of pizza or a brownie. But I don’t feel like counting my calories and want to eat whatever I want. This has been going on for a week or 10 days. Somehow I still I stick with it. By now I’m on Day 25! I canNOT throw in the towel now!

Part of my frustration is that the scale hasn’t budged in a week. Well, slight fluctuations here and there, but nothing significant enough to worry about or get excited about.

Last night I figured it out. Since eating cleaner seems to be making my menstrual cycles more regular (something I have NEVER experienced), I realized these are things I have been dealing with around this time of my cycle. Not wanting to make the effort to eat healthy. Munchies. Weight gain or fluid retention. This is exactly what I’ve been dealing with for the past week. This is exactly what I have gone through previous months about this time. Realizing this was all I needed last night to stick to my plan.

I am confident the scale will reward me soon. But more than that, I am beyond PROUD that I have stuck to my plan this past week.