I have hit numerous milestones this past week.

First my car rolled over 100,000 miles. And I wasn’t even the one driving it to witness the momentous occasion! It’s exciting but sad at the same time. It isn’t quite 5 years old, so I drive a LOT. I still have about 9 months left to pay on it and am already getting New Car Fever. I would love to get something with a 3rd row and hopefully minimize some of the kids’ fighting. They aren’t usually in the car together more than 10 minutes at a time, yet they insist on arguing and making it a brutal 10 minutes. I really can’t consider a new vehicle until this one is paid off though.

Last Friday I took the day off work. I went for a run early in the day and got more steps than I expected. I think I was at 10,000 steps before noon! It was easy to hit 15,000 steps that day…my first time since getting my Fitbit pedometer! I turned around and did the same thing on Saturday.

I’ve been sticking with Week 6 Day 1 of the c25k program. With an 8 minute run and two 5 minute runs, it pushes me. But not so much that I dread it. It’s actually enjoyable now and I am working on increasing my pace. My best time for this run is 16:01, which is great for me! I’m working to get under 16:00, then will consider moving on to the next workout.

After two crazy step days, I was hurting on Sunday. Not a bad hurt, but I could definitely tell I had been working my body harder. I wanted to run knowing I wouldn’t be able to for a couple more days, but listened to my body and just walked. It was kind of enjoyable to not push myself so hard. And it took a good 10 minutes for my body to loosen up enough that I didn’t hurt. It was a wise move on my part.

Now we’re in the middle of two extremely warm and humid days. With no air conditioner (not even a window unit), I am not about to exert myself in the heat. Even a cold shower doesn’t cut it. By the time I’m dried off, I’m dripping in sweat again. It should cool off again tomorrow, so I will be back to running as much as my schedule allows.

I can hardly wait to hit the pavement, or dirt road, again!


Running and Loving It!

Yes, you read that right…I am really looking forward to my runs and actually enjoy them!

Monday night I decided I better do a c25k workout, knowing I wouldn’t be able to on Tuesday. I tackled Week 5 Day 3 which had a 20 minute run. I’ve been scared to do this because the most I had run at once was 8 minutes. Now they want me to do 20?!? I am happy to say I did it! It was hard and I ran cautiously slow, but I did it! My pace was only 17:05, but my legs are still recovering so it was still a good workout.

Today I decided to move on to Week 6 Day 1. This one was much easier with the longest run being 8 minutes. I enjoy it much more when it’s broken up a bit more like that. I was feeling strong and pushing myself a bit more. It showed because my pace was 16:05…a full minute faster than Monday!

I haven’t reported my weigh-ins because I was up last week. I was at 266.3 and know it’s because I hadn’t eaten the best. Today, I weighed in at exactly the same. Again, because I had enough “bad” food days.

In a way, I’m okay with it. I’m feeling great with the running. My moods are better and more stable. And even though my stomach isn’t shrinking (my pants are still snug in that area), I know my legs are getting firmer and stronger.

I definitely need to be more consistent with healthy eating. It should help now that our garden is doing well. We have so much lettuce that I could easily eat two large salads a day and still not be able to eat it all! Cherry tomatoes are slowly coming…I’ve had one so far and it was delicious! And zucchini is more than abundant. I’ll have to whip up a bunch of zucchini meatballs and freeze them…and freeze any extra zucchini!

Anyone watch Downton Abbey? Marcus and I recently started watching it on Amazon Prime. I’m glad we found something we both enjoy and can watch together. We’re now on Season 3 and it’s getting a bit emotional…two nights in a row I wanted to cry!

I feel awesome!

My hard work is starting to pay off! The past few weeks my weigh-ins haven’t been great, but I’ve been okay with them because I know I’m doing the right things and I feel really good. Today I finally saw a nice loss of 1.6 pounds! I am now 263.2 and hoping to be out of the 260s (again) by the end of July. If I keep it up, I should be able to do it.

I’m working at home today, so took advantage of it and went for a run. I repeated Week 5 Day 1 of the C25k program. It got tough towards the end, but I can totally do it. I’m a bit slow, but that’s okay. I’m faster than I was a few weeks ago and I’m not as afraid now of pulling another calf muscle. I’m undecided about moving on since that one has two 8 minute runs. Maybe I’ll just go for it, knowing I can walk a little bit if I have to. If I push myself, I know I can do it though. Okay, decision made! Next workout I will do Week 5 Day 2.

Days I work at home I tend to have a hard time eating well. I’m home alone so sometimes eat crap all day long. I’m trying really, really hard to stay on track today. I’m feeling great so want to keep it up! Plus I know I might not eat the greatest over the holiday weekend, so need to save any indulgences for then.

I still can’t get over how much I am enjoying running. Days I run I am definitely in a better mood. It is amazing!

I am a runner

This morning I took advantage of some unexpected time, and did Week 5 Day 1 of the c25k program. I don’t know why I was so nervous about this particular workout, which included three 5 minute runs. My fitness has really improved and it was relatively easy! I felt amazing and my playlist seemed to be motivating me at the perfect times.

During my last running interval, “How Bad Do You Want It?” started to play. I LOVE THIS SONG! I find it incredibly motivating, and I really pushed myself the last 30 seconds of my run. It was definitely a run and not a jog.

A few short weeks ago, I never thought I’d be able to run for 5 minutes without stopping. Now I can. And it’s really not that hard! I can do this!

For the first time in my life, I feel like I can honestly say:

I am a runner.

More running, and a weigh-in

This week I started Week 4 of c25k. There are two 3 minute runs and two 5 minute runs. It’s definitely a challenge and I am dripping with sweat by the end. It feels great!! I can hardly believe I’m doing it, but I am! The 5 minute runs are definitely a challenge for me, so I won’t move onto Week 5 quite yet. Heck, I’d be happy to stay on Week 4 and work on increasing my speed. Either way, I love it and I’m glad my feet and calves aren’t giving me any trouble.

Speaking of calf muscles, yesterday I was putting on my tennis shoes and I felt a calf muscle! I don’t know that I’ve ever felt it as strong as it is right now. I love it and can’t wait to find more muscles!

I’m getting back into the smoothies I used to make. They’re so easy, I don’t know why I stopped. Oh yeah…because it was winter and it was fricking cold! They’re very refreshing now. The way I make them, they’re usually the consistency of ice cream so it’s a nice little treat.

Today was my weigh-in day. I was up .2 pounds to 264.8. I expected more of a gain. I didn’t eat great most of the week. I feel stronger though, so I think the exercise is helping. I feel like if I can be more consistent with eating healthy, the weight is going to start coming off much quicker.

No matter what, I’m feeling great these days!

More c25k, Family activities, and a Weigh-in

I was sick all weekend. Actually, it’s been about a week and I’m finally feeling much better. Colds really wipe you out!! I didn’t eat the greatest while I was sick, but didn’t do terrible. I’m really trying to exercise at least every other day, so was bummed when I had to take a few days off. Friday I was home all day binge-watching Parenthood, and started to cry when a couple announced their engagement to the family. That’s how I knew I was sick for real. I get crazy emotional when I’m sick!

By Sunday, I was feeling well enough to get outside for my C25k workout. Today I completed Week 3 Day 2. I’ve been taking it slow for fear of pulling a calf muscle, but all has been going well, so I ran faster my last 30 seconds. I’m going to start doing bursts like that from now on. It felt great! I can’t believe how much easier this has become in the short time I’ve been doing it. I peeked ahead to Week 4 and must admit I’m both scared and excited to try it. There is a LOT more running starting with Week 4!

I think what I’m loving about c25k is I have an actual goal when I get outside. Not that I didn’t when I went for walks, or even when I did some jogging. But with this, it’s like I have a concrete goal. I have someone telling me when to run, and I want to complete the workout. By myself, it’s too easy to say I don’t want to run anymore so I’ll just walk the rest.

Last night I was very surprised when Marcus said we should go for some family bike rides on some bike trails. What?! Is this really my husband talking???? As kids we both loved riding bike. I’m sure I would again if I just did it. My daughters are riding their bikes real well, so once my son gets going, this is something we might actually do. I would LOVE to have a family day and actually DO something active. It’ll likely be a year or two before we do this, because Kody just got his bike and won’t pedal yet. But it’s something to look forward to. And by then, I WILL be more fit so I won’t feel so silly on a bike. We are slowly becoming more active as a family, and I love it.

Finally, it’s time to report my weigh-in. I was sick much of the week, but I managed to squeak out a 0.4 pound loss! I’m happy with that! I’m currently at 265 and anxious to get out of the 260s. Again. It’ll happen. Especially if I keep exercising.

I’m definitely feeling healthier and stronger these days!

Drumroll Please!

I’m going to cut to the chase and give you the good news. I lost 6.2 pounds this week!!!!

It was mostly water weight, but I am thrilled and already feeling better. My pants were getting TIGHT. Now I need to keep this up and have another good weigh-in next week.

I have to admit I felt like taking the day off from tracking my food. But I received a comment on my MyFitnessPal page (thank you, Leanne) about my weight loss which reminded me I have given my fat an eviction notice. I won’t continue to make progress if I take days off all the time. And I’m not feeling the pull towards the kitchen like I have the past few weeks or month. So I’m not going to eat mindlessly. I am tracking my food today and plan to do well.

One motivator I have is that we’re having our family pictures taken at church in early August. It’s been 5 years since we’ve had them done, and I would love to be at the same weight I was then. That means I have 20-25 pounds to lose. Whether I make it or not (because it’s a hefty goal!), I will give it my best effort and I WILL feel and look better.

I’ll be heading out to do my c25k workout soon. I still can’t believe I look forward to jogging!

I don’t want to jinx myself…

…but I think I’m back on track!


I am still doing the c25k program. And enjoying it! I finished Week 2 Day 2 last night. I might stay on this week a couple extra workouts and try to increase my jogging speed before moving on. I’ll see how my next workout goes – hopefully tomorrow if I don’t get rained out.

I have also decided I have to log my food. Just do it! No matter what food plan I follow, I HAVE to track it! So I’m back to using MyFitnessPal and am doing well. I’ve been avoiding sugar and breads. I don’t feel deprived either…it’s like the switch flipped in my brain and I’m ready to do it. I hope this feeling continues. I know I will have hard days, but I want to power through them…I haven’t wanted to in a while.

I’m too close to gaining back all the weight that I’ve lost, so decided it’s time to get serious. I’ve been exercising for a few weeks, and started tracking my food on Sunday, June 1. Just the first day, I was down 5 pounds! I know I was really bloated, and luckily this is timed with my Time Of Month. I’m feeling strong, AND losing the bloat. I should see a really nice loss on the scale tomorrow. MFP friends, don’t get too excited when you see my loss. I’ve gained much more than that!

I’m just happy to be on track and feeling good.

Well, other than my neck pain. I woke up Sunday with horrible neck pain. I must have slept on it wrong, and it was extremely painful all day Sunday. It’s much better now, but still hurts.

Next time I check in, I hope to report that I’m still on track!!

Treadmill and Free By 40

My treadmill works again!!!!

This has been a long time coming. A few years ago, I stopped using it much because walking on it hurt my foot. Then I noticed it just wasn’t working right. I would be clipping along at a nice pace, and it would just stop! That’s not safe at all, so I quit using it. I wanted to try cleaning it first to see if that would help. I looked and couldn’t figure out how to get the cover off, so I have asked Marcus a few times over the past year or more. Yesterday, I asked AGAIN. Well, he was super bored yesterday, so he got it done! I walked on it for about 15 minutes to test it out and it seems to be working fine. Woohoo!

My foot started to hurt a little bit, so I think my body doesn’t like that hard surface. But it felt so good to use it again! I still want to get outside when I can, but at least I have this as an option.

I am sticking to the smaller amount of creamer in my coffee. You know what? I’m actually really enjoying it! I’m hopeful I’ll be able to cut back a bit more one of these days.

I have decided I will be Free by 40. What does this mean, you ask? It means I want to be free of the extra weight, free of the financial stress, free of anything that weighs me down either physically or metaphorically. I have just under two years to do this.

If I stay on track more and continue to make small lifestyle changes, there is no reason I cannot be at a healthy weight in two years. Financially, it’s going to be a tough year with the farm, but we’ll find a way to make it work. I can tell it’s getting easier to pay our personal bills with our paychecks, and that will gradually continue to improve. Other stuff? Well, the Prozac is definitely helping my moods and patience with the kids. As always, I continue to strive to improve myself and how I react to things.

I want to go into my 40s feeling free. The kids will be a bit older and I’ll be able to leave them home alone so I can go for walks, weed the garden, or whatever else I need to do. Lots of things will be better. And I believe they’ll be even better once I’ve shed the weight. I know it doesn’t fix everything, but at least I’ll have more energy and will have found time to care for my body and my health.

Do you have any long term or short term goals you’re working on?

It’s been a while!

I’ve been a bad blogger! For once, it doesn’t mean I’m doing terrible. I’m actually doing quite well!

So what have I been up to? Some of you know that I love my fitbit pedometer. I have found a group on the fitbit site that I’m really connecting with. It’s an active group that has daily challenges. Things like Middle Monday where we work our core, and Wing Wednesday where we work our upper body. Plus we have monthly challenges with teams, so I’ve been spending a lot of my time there.

One of the goals with my fitbit group was to write out my overall goal, and 3 reasons I want to meet this goal. Then print it out and keep it somewhere I will see it at least 3 times a day. I thought I would share my goal and reasons.

Overall goal:
Improve my physical, mental and emotional health.

1 – So I can feel like I did at my lowest weight – amazing!
2 – So I can be active and have fun with my kids.
3 – To break the cycle and my kids never have to go through this.

I have also completed my first full week of logging what I eat. I can’t remember the last time I did that! Usually I take a meal/day/weekend off and eat whatever, but nothing good ever comes of that. I’m coming to the realization that I will have to track what I eat for the rest of my life. I still don’t like it, but I’m accepting it. And even if I eat something I shouldn’t, I still need to log it. It is keeping me from getting completely carried away. And when the day comes that I eat something really crazy, I will still count those calories.

So yesterday I weighed in, after my full week of tracking my food. Oh, and I’ve gotten back into exercising. Guess what?! I lost 5.3 pounds! I am sitting at 259, back out of the 260s FOR GOOD. I still have a few pounds of holiday weight to lose, plus a few more to get to my previous lowest weight. But I’ll get there. I am feeling more confident and in control than I have in a LONG time!

I typically don’t lose two weeks in a row, but if I keep this up, there is no reason I shouldn’t. I can hardly wait to weigh myself next Wednesday!

Being on track feels so amazing. I’m going to ride this wave as long as I can!